:sigh:  well nothing really new.  same ol shit.  ha.


been thinking about this one person lately.  itz really bothering me.  makes me wanna shoot them.  eh. 


idk.  cant wait until Friday...get my drink on with my Trishy and Kelly.  yah!  Um.

theres this new person at work, i have a feeling shes not gonna work out here.  i said that from the day she walked in.  but watch she wont work out and ill be like "told you so"  cuz thats what happened with that dumb ass Kim.  Couldnt stand her and she was a scumbag.  No one listened to me then, the more and more she "opened" up everyone noticed how she was.  geez.


n e who.  we're saving up for a TV.  Well not really saving.  Im getting a card soon so imma just buy one with that and then Brian will just have to pay me back half.  so yeah.  um. 




I got that fire, that blue berry. YUM YUM in my tummy, well lungs. =0X


haa.  im bored. cant work, to busy daydreaming.  i cant stand that sometimes.  i cant stop daydreaming.


well imma go now. bye.

Im moving out. Finally. 

Best place too. haa above Terrapin Station. Landlords are kool as hell and the people in the store welcomed us. It was nice. I cant wait to get everything in there and be done with it. Im so stressed out.

Brian n me have a home, yah!!! 


On the same note Matt and Takari got an apartment too. On Bretts street. So it all worked out I guess. All 4 of us were suppose to get a house together, thank god it didnt happen. Except Brian and Matt got screw out of $100 (ea.)...and I kinda helped..but that another story.

Eh, Idk. Im stressed but oh so happy. Cant wait till we're all settled down.

RIP Sally Leckey (Schmit)
Dec. 5, 1985 - Mar. 22, 2007

I love you so much chicki.  *mwah*

so im a happy bitch. 


Brian and me are doing great. yah for me. ha.





fighting ALOT more with the family (mom, bro n dog) they all suck.  i just cant stand living with them anymore. she bitches to much, Bub doesnt listen, Rayz a fucking asshole. he attacks me all the time, no matter what i do he doesnt stop. my house is soooo fucking loud all the time cuz i got to friggin Italians living there. always fucking yelling at eachother or the dog barks at Bub cuz they're dumb together.  im so stressed out. between work and home i cant stand it. so fuck it. 
hopefully Brian, me, Matt and TK find a place by spring. we're aiming for a whole house. theres one on Ontario but its to cold to move and its too close to the Proj. then theres another one 2 houses away from Matt, but it looks shitty. idk. 

i lost like 13 lbs. not meaning to. i stopped loosing it, stopped at 115. just cut down on all the junk and shit. my teeth need to stay in my mouth. started eating breakfast everyday and vitamins (well Ovaltine and Hello Kitty vitamins haa) but yeah. so thats how i lost it all. pretty kool i guess. 


umm trying to think what else mite be new since my last real update.  oh finally chilled with Rachel. missed that bitch. Autumn is tooo damn cute. shes awesome! have to make plans again, last few times somethings came up and we didnt chill :0( sucks. 

Frank moved back over near me! yah. he goes out with Ashley now. which is weird cuz shes so young. idk. whatever not my life. Joey mite be moving in with him. thats awesome. ummm. Brett also moved closer. Ma and Jonny bought a house. kool beans.  ummmm

havent talked to Sarah and Sandra, they're mad at me still. i keep hearing from everyone that itz cuz i did beens. WOW so did Sandra so i dont know what the fuck the problem is. i did it a few fucking times. big woop. havent done it since october with frank and rose murphy. dont plan on it ever again. weed is my buddy. haa and shrooms. OHH hopefully me and Brian are gonna do that this weekend.   :0D  But if they wanna loose a lifetime friend over something dumb like that, go ahead. nothing i can do rite?


Cuzin Jeds doing good. stayin in skool, still drinking. haa Him and our cuzin Chris are suppose to chill this weekend, I wanna go. haa they'd be funny to party with. love em. 


uh. works ok. same shit everyday. old ladies and what not. haa our UPS guy Jeff isnt on our route n e more. ::so sad:: hes awesome, saw him earlier. haa I made him blush around Christmas cuz i ran under the missle toe (w/e) and he kissed me. lol he has a son my age. but hes kool as hell. 


damn. idk what else. i miss alot of ppl. alot. im just lazy.


sorry



<3 me

[	Current Location	|	Work	]
[	Emontion	|	cheerful	]
[	Sound	|	KoRn - Issues CD	]

 As of January 19th I am no longer single. hee (I got him baaack! yay!)




Brian and Krissy  
forever bitches!

[	Current Location	|	Work	]
[	Emontion	|	confused	]
[	Sound	|	Tool	]

Ok. Well here’s the deal. Brian said he had to think about it when I asked him out. Next day I went to his sister Sarah’s Halloween party. We were having fun and I think he could tell I was sad...I left him alone alot. Well later that nite we were all in the kitchen, his mom, dad, sister, brother and a bunch of his sisters friends. I lay my head down on my knees (I’m flexible that way) and he looks at me and smiles with that I’m sad but Ill smile, smile. haa Then he puts his arm and head around mine and says something along the lines of: I know I’m making you sad and I’m sorry. I’m young and I don’t know what I want right now. You know I love you and I wanna be with you but I’m just not ready for a relationship. Then he says something cute and makes me smile. Then he kisses me. :0/ The whole nite everyone kept saying I was his gurlfriend and he never corrected them. After the little thing with him and I went on he kept saying I was his lover. Idk. Then later (around 4am) we were walking back to his house and he brought it up again, saying how he feels really bad becuz he knows I’m sad and he wants a relationship but then he doesn’t. Which I know how he feels. GOD! What perfect timing to not know what you want. He’s confusing me. I’m confusing me. I don’t want us to stop messing around and being lovey cuz I’m afraid if we do stop he'll find someone else and when he’s ready for a relationship he'll go out with them instead of me. I wanna be with him so bad and I’m the dumbest person for letting him go in the first place. For 2 years I’ve been regretting it. I love him so much and I’m so happy with him. I’m so afraid to loose Brian. I know if he finds another gurl I’ll never see him again, and I just couldn’t be friends with someone I love that much. Idk what to do with myself. When I say I’d rather have him then Joe...you know I love this kid with my whole hart. Joe means alot to me but Brian means more. That sounds krazy but itz not. Itz totally true. I hate myself. I wish I could have a guarantee that we'd be together when he’s ready. Idk. Why am I so pathetic? I'M SO AFRAID TO LOOSE HIM!

[	Emontion	|	tired	]
[	Sound	|	System of a Down - Cigaro	]

I had a good day at Ozzfest. Ran into like 10 ppl there. Some ppl I wasnt expecting to be there.

Ozzy was the shit. Kickin ass still. haa OMG Walls of Jericho was awesome. She is a lil beast man. 

Unearth was really good too. 

Bought 3 bowls for $30. Crazy shit. Frank gets one of those. They're sweet.


Who went with me:  Mom, Uncle Sam, Jed and Frank


But screw them. Im mad, they left me b4 Disturbed came on (which I didnt watch cuz they suck) So I called Trish and Mikey to see where they were and see if I could get a ride home. I was soo pissed. I was screaming at my mom to just fucking leave. Oh man. I was soooo pissed. What if I didnt have a fucking ride, were they really thinking I was gonna leave b4 I saw System?? There was no way in hell I was leavin. FUCK THAT!  

BUT the only reason I felt bad for being soooo mad was Frank and Jed. Frank was really upset, he thinks Im not coming over today and Jed, he was like call me tomorrow, please dont be mad and shit. He even said he loved me b4 he left. I gotta usually fight with him to say he loves his favorite cuzin (me ^_^). So I gotta call him. Man.


So glad I staied tho. hee I love them. I cant even explain how happy I am. They are my favorite favorite band ever. Ive never been so "hyper". I sweated (?) sooo much. Never done that b4 either. haa it was gross. I smelled. Hee oh well.





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